Beginning Again

So, I have attempted many times in the past to keep a blog. I did it sucessfully for a while when some friends did as well, or when I needed a place to journal. It always became tedious and dull however, but hopefully this time it will not. I will try to fight the compulsion to blog when I have nothing to say, which I am sure everyone, including me, will appreciate.

I am in this inbetween void right now, waiting to leave Harding and start Grad School. It is a bizarre feeling, and very often drives me to act insanely, because I go through fits of wanting to be gone tomorrow, and ones of never wanting to leave. I wonder if it is good or bad that I am in Searcy for the summer, I want to be with my friends, but they are used to having the summers off from me and are not keen on devoting all of their time to me, which I wish they would do willingly and freely. I am anxious about the future, and staying here waiting for it to start is practically unbearable. I am excited when I think about my new life, but terrified when I think of leaving this one.