I am a girl in need of education

So I am feeling very, untrained right now. I feel like In the months since I have been out of graduate classes I have greatly deteriorated in both mind and spirit. I feel like I am in danger of becoming a drone worker with no capacity for thought. I need some way to continue to challenge my mind, and I am feeling very lost about that right now.

HELP!

The Tatoo I am trying to build up enough courage to get. :)

War, Peace, and Non-resistance

So I am reading this book called War, Peace, and Non-Resistance by Guy Hershberger. It is very stimulating and very troubling. I find myself sometimes being further and further ostracized from my fellow Christians, and more and more incapable of finding any place where I can be happy comfortable to worship. In reading this book I am becoming convicted of what was previously simply a leaning before. 

I feel broken by the reality of how my convictions are driving me away from the body, rather than closer to it.